I don’t even have the words to describe how I’m feeling now. Even if I did, I’m not sure you would understand.
I am a really jealous person. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be happy with myself. I always want to be someone else.
i thought of you, while in the shower
and i thought of how nice it’d be
to have your things among my things
along the bathtub’s edge
and i imagined myself running out of soap
and using yours
and wearing you to work, and the grocery store
and i imagined that night, laying down beside you
and smelling your neck
and finding out where all my soap had gone